Forgotten Extract

The opening extract from my work-in-progress, tentatively named Forgotten. I struggle with openings, almost as much as I struggle with naming stories, but since I am currently 60,000 words into the work I thought it was time I gave it a go. Let me know what you think!

It was raining the day that Cayleen Jones disappeared from Connor’s life, and it is raining the day she returns. He sees her out of the corner of his eye, a flash of brilliant ginger and bright green eyes smiling at him. At first he ignores it. He has seen her a million times and more over the last seven years, always out of the corner of his eye, always just out of reach. But then it happens again. He is in the middle of folding a pile of shirts – arms back, cuffs in, fold up – when there is another fleeting glimpse of those eyes.

She’s here.

The thought pounds through his head even though he knows it’s insane, even as he turns and looks and sees not Cayleen but a window shopper, gazing in with the universal glazed interested-but-not-too-interested expression of window shoppers.

The window shopper moves on to scout other store fronts. Behind her is a stranger. For a second Connor meets his eyes and he sees Cayleen’s looking back at him, bright green and sparkling with curiosity. The vision fades. The stranger’s eyes are an electric blue, but there is a similarity. That curiosity. That spark of interest.

Connor forces himself to look away. This man is not a window shopper. He’s looking straight at Connor, like he’s never seen a sales assistant before and is dissecting him in his mind. Connor shivers. He doesn’t like where his mind’s going. It’s going to the forbidden places, the places he’s spent years training himself to avoid.

She always looked like the world was a curiosity to her. It’s part of what made her so beautiful to him.

“Con?”

He jolts; his manager is standing on the other side of the till, mouth pulled down into a frown that lies, with difficulty, somewhere between stern and gentle.

“You okay mate?”

Ben’s a good enough manager, and a decent enough man as far as Connor can tell. He has a habit of picking at his teeth when he thinks no one’s looking and he’s going through a divorce he hasn’t told any of his staff about. Connor’s noticed the lack of wedding ring, the increase in time spent in his back office, the fraught, whispered conversations to people he’s not supposed to be calling during work hours.

“Con?” Ben’s voice is amused now. “You’re drifting again.”

Connor forces himself back to the situation. Work. Folding the shirts. This is a solid reality, a reality he can work with. “Sorry.” He starts folding again, movements quick and practiced.

Ben doesn’t leave. He’s watching Connor’s hands. Connor watches them too, and realises they’re trembling.

“You okay?”

Connor forces a smile. “I’m good, just a headache.”

Ben nods. He looks relieved. He can work with a headache. “Let me know if you wanna go out back and grab some paracetamol.”

Connor risks a look at the window. The stranger has gone. He feels the relief like a physical weight slipping off his shoulders. “Actually, if you don’t mind…”

Ben raises his hands in dismissal. “Go, grab a drink and a five minute break. I’ll man the till. If there’s a sudden rush I’ll call you back.”

Connor laughs out of habit. It’s an ongoing joke. The shop gets by, in the kind of way that most chain clothes shops get by. Much of their business is online. Especially the men’s, and they are a men’s branch. He’s been offered a job as manager at another shop, a busy shop with high footfall in the centre of Birmingham. He turned it down. He has his little corner of the world, and he is content with that.

The back of the store is a mix of narrow corridors, a large stock room with very little stock to fill it, and a sorry-looking staff room that Ben’s been talking about patching up for as long as Connor’s worked here. He grabs a glass of water but doesn’t bother with the paracetamol: it’s not going to help what’s wrong with him. Instead, he goes to the cramped toilet and braces himself by the sink, splashing cool water on his face.

When he looks up, he sees her eyes in the mirror.

He swerves. There’s no one there. Of course there’s no one there. But his heart is pounding like crazy and he staggers back to the break room to sit down before he falls down.

This is bad. It hasn’t been this bad in a long time. Usually, he sees her once a day. He shakes the sight away. He knows it’s impossible for her to be here.

Three times in one day is unusual. It’s what his sister Bethan would refer to as a ‘bad day’. He hasn’t had many bad days in the last few years. They were very common immediately after she disappeared, but he has worked hard to make them less so.

He rests his head back against the wall, closing his eyes. His thoughts are a broken record, scratching the same name out over and over.

Cayleen. Cayleen. Cayleen.

“She isn’t here,” he whispers. “I didn’t see her.”

Her green eyes. That ginger hair. Ginger, never auburn, never red. She was proud of it. He saw it so clearly. He saw her so clearly.

Cayleen. Cayleen.

“She’s not here.” He presses his hands over his eyes, encasing himself in a darkness where he can be the voice of reason to his own thoughts. The voice of reason always sounds a bit like Bethan to him. He likes that. It grounds him to reality, to the here and now.

Cayleen.

“She can’t be here.”

Why not?

“Because she doesn’t exist. She never existed.” Acceptance was one of the final stages of his therapy. It’s a stage he returns to time and time again on the bad days. “Cayleen Jones wasn’t real.”

But the name keeps repeating in his head, and in the darkness behind his hands he sees the stranger with the blue eyes watching him.

The Cities Extract

The opening extract of my novel, The Cities. DI Susan Dethridge is called out to the third in a series of bizarre crime scenes.

There is a darkness in the Third City. It crawls through the corridors and scratches against people’s doors, a creeping assailant that travels between towers and attacks at random. The papers are calling it a serial killer. The worst murders in the history of the cities. But that would assume that the darkness is human, and Susan Dethridge has taken to assuming the opposite.

The phone ringing doesn’t wake her. She was already awake. These days, sleep is something other people do. She rolls over and answers before the shrill call can wake Richard.

“DI Dethridge.”

“Dethridge, we’ve got another one.” Chief Inspector Carroll, head of the Third City’s police force, greets her in what’s becoming the usual manner. “Fifty-ninth floor, Friary Tower.”

“I’m on my way, sir.”

He hangs up. Susan rolls over and slips the phone back into its cradle. Richard’s shifted ever so slightly. She kisses him on the forehead and slips out of bed.

We’ve got another one.

The sinking feeling in her stomach gets worse as she dresses. There’s no window in her apartment so she can’t look out to see the damage to the nearby tower – and there will be damage, of that much she’s certain.

Susan glances into the room her children share. They’re both asleep. Lost to the world. She scribbles a note in the kitchen, and lets herself out into the corridor. Here, on the forty-seventh floor of Battenburg Tower, Third City, there are fifty apartments, and usually there is so much noise it hurts. Tonight it’s silent. Everyone is sleeping. There are no sounds other than her own footsteps as she strides to the nearest lift.

It takes her to the floor below, and she manages to hop on a tram. The driver’s working the graveyard shift. He tells her no one should be working this late as though this is a fact and somehow they’re both in violation of it. Susan nods and smiles, and tries to make sense of the jumbled thoughts in her head.

Another one.

The station is just as quiet, but the circular train that goes by all the towers is regular through the night and she jumps on the next one. The seats are shabby, the paint peeling, but Susan likes the trains because she can look out into the world, and watch it go by.

She still can’t see the tower in question, but she sees so much else. The lights in the sky above. The smog below, a hint of it outside the window here giving the world that false orange glow she grew up with all the time in the Fourth City. If she tilts her neck, she can see the glittering lights of Ravensdale, Kensington and Belmont, the only three towers to continue all the way to the dizzying heights of the Upper City.

The train jolts to a stop. Susan doesn’t want to leave it. She doesn’t want to give up the sight of the stars and the glittering lights for the darkness.

Carroll is waiting for her at the station. His large face is wrinkled into a frown and that pit in Susan’s stomach digs deeper. Few things unnerve Carroll.

“Susan good, you’re here.”

Her boss has a booming voice. The entrance to the Third City level of Friary Tower is a large open space with benches and open-plan shops, and Carroll’s voice fills it, bounces back off the walls and comes back to them, if anything, louder. Susan winces. With the echo, his voice seems to tremor.

“What’s going on, sir?”

“Best to see for yourself, I think.”

Susan falls into step behind him, trying not to frown, to let anything show.

“Tell me about the others, Dethridge,” Carroll says.

“This is the third attack,” she says. “There have been false alarms but only two confirmed.”

“And?”

“Seventeen dead in the first. A hole was torn through the floor in the forty-seventh floor of Belmont.”

“No survivors?”

“No credible witnesses.”

Carroll glances back at her. “Meaning?”

“The five survivors were judged incapable of giving testimony.”

Carroll makes a sound somewhere between a snort and a laugh. “That’s a polite way of saying they’re all nutters. Up here.”

They turn into a lift. Susan stands with her hands neatly clasped in front of her. She doesn’t speak, but waits for Carroll to key in the floor number.

“Do you know much about this tower?” he asks when the lift jerks into motion.

“I know the apartments here are cheap.”

“This is as high as it goes. The Second City can look down and see the roof.”

Susan hesitates. “Are we going to the roof, sir?”

“Don’t worry. We’ve got smog masks up there.”

It isn’t what Susan was worrying about but she doesn’t push for more information. She’s been outside perhaps two times in her life. Usually you stay in the towers, on the trains. This case has already taken her so far out of her comfort zone; this latest push just seems like another imposition in a long line.

Nineteen floors pass in a jolting second. Susan glances at the sign. Fifty-ninth floor: residential.

“End of the line,” Carroll says with forced joviality. “Out we get.”

They step into a war.

Or the remains of a war. Susan lets her eyes take one quick sweep of the narrow corridor ahead of them. It seems wider because of the gaping holes in the walls on either side. Like something’s gouged the bricks out of place.

The overhead lights swing in a breeze, casting darting shadows over the scene. Susan takes a step forward. Her foot crunches; she tenses, pales.

“It’s all right,” Carroll says. “Just debris.”

There’s a certain heaviness to his voice. Susan looks down at the plaster she stood on, then lets her eyes go back to the corridor. A hand falls limply out of one of the holes. She doesn’t go closer, doesn’t need to. If someone is still attached to that hand, they’re long past help.

“Where does the damage start?”

“Apartment eight. The other side of the corridor.”

“So it came down here -” Susan turns and looks up at a staircase leading to an open door. The breeze she’s noticed is coming from up there. “- And then up onto the roof.”

“That’s what we were thinking.” Carroll pauses. Clears his throat. “Any idea what it is?”

Susan shakes her head. Crouches down. A trail of black dust lines the floor and when she touches it it has the same rough, grainy texture she’s noticed at both the other crime scenes. It’s a sign that this is definitely one of her cases. “We need to analyse this,” she says.

“Already happening. But the other scenes – they didn’t show anything?”

“No, sir.” She pauses again. Carroll hasn’t been working on the case. She’s been in charge. But today he came all the way here before her. “How many dead?”

“Thirty-two.”

Carroll’s tone is hollow. Susan straightens up. Shakes her head. “The roof?”

“Seventeen bodies down here. Fifteen up on top.”

“Can I take a look?”

“Why do you think I called you out here?” Carroll smiles weakly. “Apparently you’re the expert on this.”

“I’m having to learn quickly, sir.”

An officer ties a smog mask over Susan’s mouth. She doesn’t move. Stays so still she hardly breaths. But she hates these things. The air tastes disinfected through them and they itch. Necessary, though, if you’re anywhere below the Second City and you’re going outside.

They climb the stairs together, her and Carroll, and like a gentleman he holds the door open for her at the top.

Susan wishes he hadn’t. She wishes he’d let it slam on her, let it push her back down the stairs.

She freezes in the threshold, looking out over the rooftop. The smog swirls. Shifts, like a living entity. It catches the lights from the cities above and reflects it back to them twisted, distorted. And the empty eyes stare back at her out it.

The bodies rise out of the smog like graves. Heads twisted. Eyes unfocused. Some are pierced through the skull. Some have broken necks. All dead. Gone.

Something scrapes across the rooftop, the only sound in a silent night, and Susan steps backwards into the building.

“Detective? Is it like the others?”

Susan nods. Carroll shuts the door gently, looks down at her with concern. She clears her throat. “Yes, sir.” Her voice is hoarse. She doesn’t like it. She tries clearing her throat again, but it doesn’t seem to want to work. “But  well – bigger, sir.”

“Bigger?”

“More damage. More deaths.”

“So whatever this is – you think it’s getting worse?”

Susan glances at the closed door and tries not to consider what’s on the other side. “Yes, sir. I think so.”

Otherworld Extract

An extract introducing one of the key characters in my novel, Otherworld. Seren, one of the beings who created our world, comes across someone unworthy. Contains some swearing. 

Seren’s footsteps dance along the very edge of the pavement. She’s singing to herself under her breath. She’s not sure what song but it’s calming and peaceful and it reminds her of the beautiful things rather than her anger. That’s what matters.

The smog makes the stars all blurry.

She frowns up at the sky, her dance coming to a stop. And when she stops, she hears him breathing behind her.

They’re beautiful all the same.

An arm hooks around her neck. She doesn’t protest. She doesn’t struggle. She doesn’t scream. He drags her back but his arm slacks, surprised by her lack of reaction. Seren darts underneath it. Her leg twists. In one smooth motion she kicks him into the alley he had been aiming for.

“Hi. Were you wanting something?”

He doubles over, panting. He’s larger than her by at least a head and three times wider but Seren just smiles as he straightens up, squaring his shoulders, cracking his fists. His lip is bleeding. She doesn’t remember punching him but sometimes anger blinds. There’s blood on her knuckles. She looks back up at the stars and takes a calming breath.

“It’s a beautiful night, don’t you think?”

He’s not as drunk as she thought. His eyes are clear. “You cut me, bitch.”

“Sorry. Wrong night.” She shrugs. “Wrong bitch. D’you want to leave it at that? It’s a beautiful night. No point in ruining it.”

He smiles. The coldness in that smile is surprising. He knows what he’s doing. It’s not the first time he’s done it. She can see it in his confidence. Hear it in his voice.

Blood thuds in her ears.

Men like you don’t deserve to live in my world.

She forces her eyes back up to the sky. “I’d really think twice about attacking,” she says. “I’m working on some anger management issues, but it’s an uphill struggle, you know?”

He strides forward.

Without looking down, Seren reaches out a hand.

The man stops. His eyes widen almost comically and he pulls but he can’t pull away.

Too late.

Her fingers touch his chest and sink in, past the skin, past anything humanity is aware of. The man’s head cracks back. His breathing’s shallow and quick. His eyes dart around the alley. Aware of everything. Understanding nothing. Unable to speak or move. Just standing there with his intended victim’s hand inside his chest.

“This may hurt a little.”

The light is pale inside of him. So pale, for a minute she struggles to find it. But it’s there. Pulsing weakly. Recognising the brightness inside of her and reaching out towards her. Thousands of years and generations upon generations of humanity have paled what once was bright but she remains as powerful as ever. The light is solid under her hands. She clenches it and the man’s body jolts.

In her fingers, she holds everything that makes this man real. Everything that makes him exist in this world. This pale, trembling light – so desperate to be a part of her, to be with her – is the only thing keeping this man alive and he doesn’t even know it exists. She tightens her grip and he grunts.

“It really is a beautiful night.”

She pulls. The light comes out of him like a thread unravelling and winds instead into Seren’s body, where it’s instantly absorbed into the brightness burning through her veins. Undoing a mistake. One day, maybe, she’ll make something else out of that light. For now though she watches the body crumple and dissolve into fog. Without the light, there is nothing to give it strength, nothing to give it solidity.

The fog dissipates in a second.

Seren rubs her hand together as though they’re dirty, but they’ve emerged completely clear, untouched by delving into the filthy man’s soul.